[ And like the obedient man he is, he is tugged right back in by that simple touch, flustering as his single method of escape is effectively cut off. But Ayato has a point, he can't leave his room while he's na- ]
[ He makes the mistake of looking down at Ayato while Ayato is looking down at him and it makes him go all kinds of red again. Oh. Yes. He's naked. He's naked and Ayato is looking. Even worse, it makes a certain part of him twitch slightly because all his non-panicking brain can think of is how attractive his lord continues to look. ]
[ Body please!! ]
[ The words bring back a flash of memory to Thoma's mind, a memory of being leaned over the other man, dragging his tongue over his hip and hazily thinking how delicious the man wa- ]
[ Flustering once more, he scrambles to pull a corner of the blanket over his waist and cover himself up. ]
I'm sorry, I was not in my right state of mind! But that is clearly not an acceptable excuse for doing what I did to you-!
{ while thoma seems to have a flustered panic attack, ayato just makes things worse by leaning up onto his elbows and opening his mouth-- }
What would be an acceptable excuse? Since you don't seem to remember clearly, I gave you permission.
{ he sighs, tutting under his breath as he finally lets go of thoma's hand so he can sit up a bit higher and lean back on it instead. the other shifts to trace the skin of his inner thigh where the skin is still red, and he definitely parts his leg more to make it harder for thoma to calm down at all, looking up at him from under his lashes. }
Though I didn't realise you had it in you to go that hard.
{ he's 100% doing this to mess with him, sorry thoma. }
[ He absolutely can't help it this time, it's as if his eyes are drawn in without his control, looking down at Ayato's thighs as he outright displays all of the clear evidence of Thoma's... handiwork. ]
[ Oh boy was there a lot of handiwork done. And mouthiwork, he can see the bite marks he'd left and knowing those are all his doing is mentally sending him into outer space. And yet he can't help but let his eyes linger, drinking in Ayato's form before catching himself and flustering all over again. ]
[ He deserves this bullying for his crimes against (upon?) Ayato's body. ]
I- I have lotion if you'd like-!
[ Thoma did you just offer to lotion your lord's inner thighs. ]
[ Please my lord, he's dying and against all odds he's getting turned on again and- ]
If... if you would prefer...
[ He's burning red, caught between the need to service Ayato and... and service him. And suddenly the flashes of memory he thought had just been a really nice dream resurface, one by one, with each mark on Ayato's body he takes in. ]
[ He felt like he needed to be for forgiveness and here was Ayato instead... seducing him? For more?? Or was he just being teased because Ayato was too kind to point out the way Thoma had essentially used his body for pleasure?? ]
[ This is the most confused boner he's ever had. ]
{ he doesn't think he was used for pleasure, not with some of the things thoma said during it, but he does think he's safe to tease just to get him more flustered. he doesn't expect him to actually get hard again because how the heck does he still have energy--.
besides, he isn't looking and thoma has a blanket pulled in front of himself now, so he has reason to think this wouldn't count as seduction per se--though it was supposed to count as a 'i'm okay with this if you want to ask again in the future'. seduction for later? maybe expressing that with actual words would have been better.
as thoma's words trail off ayato's gaze does slide back over to him, a frown starting to tug at his lips and brow. }
[ In neat and beautiful calligraphy, Ayaka has composed a letter for her brother. It is kept in a small white envelope, and is given to him with her birthday present to him. ]
To my dearest Ayato,
Spring is swelling Is that blossom I see? White snow Hanging on the branches Where the warbler sings
It is yet another year, which I am certain will be filled with hardships and challenges, but we have never experienced these things without any lessons to learn. In between, we always have our share of happy moments, both together as family, and as servants of the Raiden Shogun.
I would like to celebrate today, your day of birth, as a day where I am stripped of all my obligations, except those to you. You have told me before that it is the elder brother's job to spoil his little sister, but I believe that it is the little sister's duty to ensure that her brother will always have a reason to smile, and that you will have a home to come back to. I hope that the memories we make today will put a smile on your face whenever you go back to them in your mind's eye. Please trust in me that we will not be limited to making happy memories just today. I hope to have more moments where we can spend time together as just brother and sister, just like when we were younger.
That I am happy, content, and have a roof over my head is because of you. Thank you for always being here for me, Ayato. I am so fortunate to be your sister.
[ Thoma's endless energy has benefited the man in numerous ways... ]
[ He'd been about to ask for forgiveness again but then he sees the start of that frown on Ayato's brow and it freezes him in place while his question sinks through him to his core. ]
[ What would he prefer? So many things. So many he doesn't think he has any right to say, but amidst those hazy memories, he can distinctly recall Ayato giving him the right. Giving him permission and encouraging him over and over. But surely that was just because of his condition at the time? They had just both been carry away by his own need? ]
[ If he could, he'd finally admit he's had an intense crush that mixed admiration respect and attraction together on the man underneath him for the longest time. But could he? ]
[ The hesitation is evident, written clearly on his face for just Ayato to see. ]
I...
[ He's softer spoken with his next words, still blushing deeply as he reaches for Ayato's hand to bring up so he can press his forehead to the back of it, a quiet show of his loyalty to the other man. A soft honesty that he feels he must offer to him in turn, if he is to be truly loyal. ]
I would prefer never to do something that offends you, or that you disliked, or that would dishonor you.
... At the same time, I... like this. Being like this. With you.
{ he doesn't get much of a chance to open it until later, likely while dinner is being prepared. it gives him the privacy to read her words, the privacy and space to allow the warm smile that fills his face with every word written on the page. of course, he would have been okay with reading this with ayaka present as well, but their friends have been over today to celebrate as well and he'd rather openly this privately.
so much kindness is etched into the page, this letter pretty much encompassing why he fights as hard as he does, why he'll take the tiredness, the sorrow, the darkness, all of it so ayaka can keep being her lovely, wonderful self.
until the others leave he'll tuck it out of the way in his room, and when they have a moment's peace to themselves he'll thank her wholeheartedly for a gift he'll treasure.
in fact, later down the line, she'll find that same letter in a frame on top of a chest of drawers in his room, even long after his birthday has passed. }
{ the hesitation is more telling that thoma would probably like, but he can be grateful that ayato is hardly prepared to face that right now either. that's something he'll also need to come back to, when he's had time to properly digest what the rest of this likely means.
he's about to open his mouth to speak when those softer words fall from his lips, watching in quietness as his hand is pulled to rest against his forehead. his fingers brush against hair. }
Do you think what you did offended me, that I disliked it or it dishonored me in some way?
{ he had been serious in asking that, but he can't help himself when his mouth curls at the edge, a hint of a smile showing then: } It was none of those, though perhaps I may be a little stuck leaving the room now my clothes are incredibly dirty, I'm not entirely sure how I'll manage to make it back without being seen.
{ he is definitely using that as a distraction to not go deeper into this now he got the information he wanted. }
[ Ayato's tease lessens the tension in Thoma's body, because he had been worried that he'd be... turned away? Rejected? He wasn't sure what. ]
[ A part of him thought Ayato would never do something like that to him. He knew in his heart that Ayato regarded him with far too much kindness and consideration to heartless turn him away, but his mind... his mind had long ago been tempered by the Inazuman expectations of him not to expect anything. Not to hope past his position. That the man's duty would always come first. ]
[ But maybe, here... Maybe here he could hope a little more. ]
[ So even though his ears still redden from the tease, his smile is soft and with just a little more boldness, he presses a kiss against the back of Ayato's hand before setting it down. At least, he'll stop apologizing profusely. ]
I can go fetch your clothing, or you can borrow some of mine.
{ the sad thing is that it would always come first, and he'll have a harder time delving into what this all means now he's seen it probably goes deeper than the mindless want that they'd experienced earlier from the way thoma is dealing with this.
he's going to have a very rough night's sleep because as much as he may want to deny it, he hasn't allowed himself any room to fantasise about anyone, knowing that eventually he'd have to do what was right for his family and the clan so ayaka could be the one to marry for love.
maybe that's why it's harder to accept cloud, even if he should.
but he bites into his tongue lightly to stop thinking about it here and now, smile not faltering in the least. practiced, even if this likely isn't the time for it. }
I wonder what Ayaka would think if I returned home in your clothes? { actually-- } Did you message her as well about your so called 'illness' this morning?
[ At least Thoma is a simple dog who will gently and happily hold onto his single hope while Ayato thinks himself in circles. ]
[ Aaand the not-flustering lasts for only a minute. He's quite sure he would have literally died if it had been Ayaka who'd come to check in on him. If not out of embarrassment for being caught in that position, then certainly by Ayato for letting himself be caught. ]
No-! I had hoped you would tell her, though I had also hoped neither of you would visit for worry of getting sick yourselves...
[ That plan hadn't worked in the least. ]
Ah- we could just say your clothes got dirty while you were here.
[ Which... wasn't a lie, a fact that Thoma realizes when his gaze flickers toward the discarded clothing. ]
[ Thoma is sending this text late in the evening because he doesn't want to disrupt whatever plans Ayaka had made for Ayato and definitely not because this is how much of the day it'd taken him to work up the courage to text Ayato after yesterday. ]
Happy Birthday Ayato!
When you have a moment, I have a gift I'd like to drop off for you. I'll be quick!
{ the look of relief that crosses his face is not hidden at all. he's glad that ayaka was not told directly, and it suddenly makes sense why he was able to use the spare key--why it hadn't been taken yet. }
I left her a note to say I was coming to check on you, but you should know neither of us would want you to be suffering on your own.
{ there's a pause this time, his expression shifting to a softer form of amusement, because it's a little funny now that they are here now. }
I even bought soup.
{ he'll gesture to the side of them, where there is indeed a container with soup sat inside a cardboard carry tray. } I'm honestly surprised I didn't drop it on the floor at the time-- { and that softer look is definitely turning more teasing again. thoma is never living this down. } --with the way you moaned my name as I'd entered the room.
{ for once thoma may be surprised by how quickly the response comes, almost as though he's had his phone on his person the majority of the day while watching movies with ayaka and lumine. }
Thank you, I'm in all day, so come by whenever you like.
Nor do you have to be quick when you visit, stay as long as you like.
{ now thoma's just making him worry he's going to be awkward about this for a long time. }
[ He'd been about to scold Ayato about approaching people who were sick, it's very dangerous to put yourself in such a situation Ayato!!, and even though the soup was very appreciated and honestly makes his heart beat a bit faster with how sweet it was for Ayato to go through the effort of doing so, it was still- ]
[ And then the tease comes along and his face heats up even more. He can't even hide in his pillows because Ayato is on top of both of them. Still naked. And undoubtedly well aware of why Thoma had been saying his name as he entered so he couldn't even deny it. ]
[ What do you even say in this situation?? ]
It... was the only way I could find relief...
[ Yes admitting that jacking off to your boss was the only way to satisfy yourself, that's what you should say. ]
{ WOW he wouldn't have had to if someone had wished him happy birthday in the morning like he always had in the past???
not that he isn't happy to spend the day with ayaka and lumine as well, but he had hoped thoma would be there too.
maybe this is a little bit of a spoiled way of thinking about it. he knows he likely needs to have some space (which is why he hadn't sent a message either) but. still.
he'll blame tiredness for staring at the door as he waits for the knock. thankfully ayaka and lumine are in the kitchen to miss it. }
[ He had a late start!! And then he had to die in bed for a while!! All of that was literally yesterday Ayato!! ]
[ But in spite of literally spending all morning agonizing over wanting to properly celebrate Ayato's birthday and when he should give him his present and what he would say-... in spite of everything he'd inwardly gone through this morning, his face lights up at seeing Ayato all too naturally and there's not a sign of hesitance in his smile or his tone because. Because he means his next words with all his heart, no matter what the circumstances. ]
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Date: 2023-04-02 09:02 pm (UTC)Are you planning on leaving the room like that?
{ and while thoma does his best to not look down, ayato clearly has no fucking shame as his eyes dip to where thoma is clearly very undressed. }
Besides, { this should not be as amusing as it is } you already licked me clean earlier, rather like a cat.
{ at least he isn't bringing up the things he said, only what he did. }
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Date: 2023-04-02 09:29 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2023-04-02 09:52 pm (UTC)[ He makes the mistake of looking down at Ayato while Ayato is looking down at him and it makes him go all kinds of red again. Oh. Yes. He's naked. He's naked and Ayato is looking. Even worse, it makes a certain part of him twitch slightly because all his non-panicking brain can think of is how attractive his lord continues to look. ]
[ Body please!! ]
[ The words bring back a flash of memory to Thoma's mind, a memory of being leaned over the other man, dragging his tongue over his hip and hazily thinking how delicious the man wa- ]
[ Flustering once more, he scrambles to pull a corner of the blanket over his waist and cover himself up. ]
I'm sorry, I was not in my right state of mind! But that is clearly not an acceptable excuse for doing what I did to you-!
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Date: 2023-04-02 10:12 pm (UTC)What would be an acceptable excuse? Since you don't seem to remember clearly, I gave you permission.
{ he sighs, tutting under his breath as he finally lets go of thoma's hand so he can sit up a bit higher and lean back on it instead. the other shifts to trace the skin of his inner thigh where the skin is still red, and he definitely parts his leg more to make it harder for thoma to calm down at all, looking up at him from under his lashes. }
Though I didn't realise you had it in you to go that hard.
{ he's 100% doing this to mess with him, sorry thoma. }
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Date: 2023-04-02 11:30 pm (UTC)[ Oh boy was there a lot of handiwork done. And mouthiwork, he can see the bite marks he'd left and knowing those are all his doing is mentally sending him into outer space. And yet he can't help but let his eyes linger, drinking in Ayato's form before catching himself and flustering all over again. ]
[ He deserves this bullying for his crimes against (upon?) Ayato's body. ]
I- I have lotion if you'd like-!
[ Thoma did you just offer to lotion your lord's inner thighs. ]
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Date: 2023-04-02 11:47 pm (UTC)honestly even he's impressed by how much of a mess he looks there now, eyes shifting from thoma for the first time to properly see the damage there.
his finger traces one of the bite marks and when thoma blurts out the offer for lotion he can't help himself. }
Oh? And here I was hoping you'd offer to kiss it better.
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Date: 2023-04-02 11:57 pm (UTC)If... if you would prefer...
[ He's burning red, caught between the need to service Ayato and... and service him. And suddenly the flashes of memory he thought had just been a really nice dream resurface, one by one, with each mark on Ayato's body he takes in. ]
[ He felt like he needed to be for forgiveness and here was Ayato instead... seducing him? For more?? Or was he just being teased because Ayato was too kind to point out the way Thoma had essentially used his body for pleasure?? ]
[ This is the most confused boner he's ever had. ]
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Date: 2023-04-03 12:33 am (UTC)besides, he isn't looking and thoma has a blanket pulled in front of himself now, so he has reason to think this wouldn't count as seduction per se--though it was supposed to count as a 'i'm okay with this if you want to ask again in the future'. seduction for later? maybe expressing that with actual words would have been better.
as thoma's words trail off ayato's gaze does slide back over to him, a frown starting to tug at his lips and brow. }
What would you prefer?
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Date: 2023-04-03 01:06 am (UTC)To my dearest Ayato,
Spring is swelling
Is that blossom I see?
White snow
Hanging on the branches
Where the warbler sings
It is yet another year, which I am certain will be filled with hardships and challenges, but we have never experienced these things without any lessons to learn. In between, we always have our share of happy moments, both together as family, and as servants of the Raiden Shogun.
I would like to celebrate today, your day of birth, as a day where I am stripped of all my obligations, except those to you. You have told me before that it is the elder brother's job to spoil his little sister, but I believe that it is the little sister's duty to ensure that her brother will always have a reason to smile, and that you will have a home to come back to. I hope that the memories we make today will put a smile on your face whenever you go back to them in your mind's eye. Please trust in me that we will not be limited to making happy memories just today. I hope to have more moments where we can spend time together as just brother and sister, just like when we were younger.
That I am happy, content, and have a roof over my head is because of you. Thank you for always being here for me, Ayato. I am so fortunate to be your sister.
Happy birthday.
Your Ayaka
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Date: 2023-04-03 01:26 am (UTC)[ He'd been about to ask for forgiveness again but then he sees the start of that frown on Ayato's brow and it freezes him in place while his question sinks through him to his core. ]
[ What would he prefer? So many things. So many he doesn't think he has any right to say, but amidst those hazy memories, he can distinctly recall Ayato giving him the right. Giving him permission and encouraging him over and over. But surely that was just because of his condition at the time? They had just both been carry away by his own need? ]
[ If he could, he'd finally admit he's had an intense crush that mixed admiration respect and attraction together on the man underneath him for the longest time. But could he? ]
[ The hesitation is evident, written clearly on his face for just Ayato to see. ]
I...
[ He's softer spoken with his next words, still blushing deeply as he reaches for Ayato's hand to bring up so he can press his forehead to the back of it, a quiet show of his loyalty to the other man. A soft honesty that he feels he must offer to him in turn, if he is to be truly loyal. ]
I would prefer never to do something that offends you, or that you disliked, or that would dishonor you.
... At the same time, I... like this. Being like this. With you.
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Date: 2023-04-03 07:34 pm (UTC)so much kindness is etched into the page, this letter pretty much encompassing why he fights as hard as he does, why he'll take the tiredness, the sorrow, the darkness, all of it so ayaka can keep being her lovely, wonderful self.
until the others leave he'll tuck it out of the way in his room, and when they have a moment's peace to themselves he'll thank her wholeheartedly for a gift he'll treasure.
in fact, later down the line, she'll find that same letter in a frame on top of a chest of drawers in his room, even long after his birthday has passed. }
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Date: 2023-04-03 07:43 pm (UTC)he's about to open his mouth to speak when those softer words fall from his lips, watching in quietness as his hand is pulled to rest against his forehead. his fingers brush against hair. }
Do you think what you did offended me, that I disliked it or it dishonored me in some way?
{ he had been serious in asking that, but he can't help himself when his mouth curls at the edge, a hint of a smile showing then: } It was none of those, though perhaps I may be a little stuck leaving the room now my clothes are incredibly dirty, I'm not entirely sure how I'll manage to make it back without being seen.
{ he is definitely using that as a distraction to not go deeper into this now he got the information he wanted. }
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Date: 2023-04-03 09:36 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-04-04 12:00 am (UTC)[ A part of him thought Ayato would never do something like that to him. He knew in his heart that Ayato regarded him with far too much kindness and consideration to heartless turn him away, but his mind... his mind had long ago been tempered by the Inazuman expectations of him not to expect anything. Not to hope past his position. That the man's duty would always come first. ]
[ But maybe, here... Maybe here he could hope a little more. ]
[ So even though his ears still redden from the tease, his smile is soft and with just a little more boldness, he presses a kiss against the back of Ayato's hand before setting it down. At least, he'll stop apologizing profusely. ]
I can go fetch your clothing, or you can borrow some of mine.
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Date: 2023-04-04 12:41 am (UTC)he's going to have a very rough night's sleep because as much as he may want to deny it, he hasn't allowed himself any room to fantasise about anyone, knowing that eventually he'd have to do what was right for his family and the clan so ayaka could be the one to marry for love.
maybe that's why it's harder to accept cloud, even if he should.
but he bites into his tongue lightly to stop thinking about it here and now, smile not faltering in the least. practiced, even if this likely isn't the time for it. }
I wonder what Ayaka would think if I returned home in your clothes? { actually-- } Did you message her as well about your so called 'illness' this morning?
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Date: 2023-04-04 12:55 am (UTC)[ Aaand the not-flustering lasts for only a minute. He's quite sure he would have literally died if it had been Ayaka who'd come to check in on him. If not out of embarrassment for being caught in that position, then certainly by Ayato for letting himself be caught. ]
No-! I had hoped you would tell her, though I had also hoped neither of you would visit for worry of getting sick yourselves...
[ That plan hadn't worked in the least. ]
Ah- we could just say your clothes got dirty while you were here.
[ Which... wasn't a lie, a fact that Thoma realizes when his gaze flickers toward the discarded clothing. ]
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Date: 2023-04-04 08:47 am (UTC)Happy Birthday Ayato!
When you have a moment, I have a gift I'd like to drop off for you. I'll be quick!
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Date: 2023-04-04 02:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-04-04 03:10 pm (UTC)I left her a note to say I was coming to check on you, but you should know neither of us would want you to be suffering on your own.
{ there's a pause this time, his expression shifting to a softer form of amusement, because it's a little funny now that they are here now. }
I even bought soup.
{ he'll gesture to the side of them, where there is indeed a container with soup sat inside a cardboard carry tray. } I'm honestly surprised I didn't drop it on the floor at the time-- { and that softer look is definitely turning more teasing again. thoma is never living this down. } --with the way you moaned my name as I'd entered the room.
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Date: 2023-04-04 05:23 pm (UTC)Thank you, I'm in all day, so come by whenever you like.
Nor do you have to be quick when you visit, stay as long as you like.
{ now thoma's just making him worry he's going to be awkward about this for a long time. }
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Date: 2023-04-04 07:49 pm (UTC)[ He fidgets with his phone for a bit, ignoring the impatient thump of Taroumaru's leg against his back before responding. ]
I'll be there in a few minutes then.
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Date: 2023-04-04 08:24 pm (UTC)[ And then the tease comes along and his face heats up even more. He can't even hide in his pillows because Ayato is on top of both of them. Still naked. And undoubtedly well aware of why Thoma had been saying his name as he entered so he couldn't even deny it. ]
[ What do you even say in this situation?? ]
It... was the only way I could find relief...
[ Yes admitting that jacking off to your boss was the only way to satisfy yourself, that's what you should say. ]
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Date: 2023-04-04 08:34 pm (UTC)not that he isn't happy to spend the day with ayaka and lumine as well, but he had hoped thoma would be there too.
maybe this is a little bit of a spoiled way of thinking about it. he knows he likely needs to have some space (which is why he hadn't sent a message either) but. still.
he'll blame tiredness for staring at the door as he waits for the knock. thankfully ayaka and lumine are in the kitchen to miss it. }
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Date: 2023-04-04 08:58 pm (UTC)[ But in spite of literally spending all morning agonizing over wanting to properly celebrate Ayato's birthday and when he should give him his present and what he would say-... in spite of everything he'd inwardly gone through this morning, his face lights up at seeing Ayato all too naturally and there's not a sign of hesitance in his smile or his tone because. Because he means his next words with all his heart, no matter what the circumstances. ]
Happy Birthday Ayato!