{ the sad thing is that it would always come first, and he'll have a harder time delving into what this all means now he's seen it probably goes deeper than the mindless want that they'd experienced earlier from the way thoma is dealing with this.
he's going to have a very rough night's sleep because as much as he may want to deny it, he hasn't allowed himself any room to fantasise about anyone, knowing that eventually he'd have to do what was right for his family and the clan so ayaka could be the one to marry for love.
maybe that's why it's harder to accept cloud, even if he should.
but he bites into his tongue lightly to stop thinking about it here and now, smile not faltering in the least. practiced, even if this likely isn't the time for it. }
I wonder what Ayaka would think if I returned home in your clothes? { actually-- } Did you message her as well about your so called 'illness' this morning?
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Date: 2023-04-04 12:41 am (UTC)he's going to have a very rough night's sleep because as much as he may want to deny it, he hasn't allowed himself any room to fantasise about anyone, knowing that eventually he'd have to do what was right for his family and the clan so ayaka could be the one to marry for love.
maybe that's why it's harder to accept cloud, even if he should.
but he bites into his tongue lightly to stop thinking about it here and now, smile not faltering in the least. practiced, even if this likely isn't the time for it. }
I wonder what Ayaka would think if I returned home in your clothes? { actually-- } Did you message her as well about your so called 'illness' this morning?